i must honour my duty, stories have been brewing.
i know her.
as I’m busy preparing and thinking
about this coming workshop,
she came and nudged me gently
“keep going, do not stop
but remember our story”.
i must honour my duty, stories have been brewing.
i know her.
as I’m busy preparing and thinking
about this coming workshop,
she came and nudged me gently
“keep going, do not stop
but remember our story”.
I have just uploaded a new video on my youtube channel… :)
I don’t want to add anything to the general over drive and I’m aware that when I’m in writing mode, I end up in the zone and I’m not available for my family. My son ends up left to his own devices for too long while I’m just sat in front of a screen, typing away. I don’t want to do that to him. Even if it’s the hardest thing to do, I want to be present, to be with him as we share precious playful moments together. I know that his youth is very finite and that it won’t last forever, and I must make sure that I make the most of it and that I offer him precious moments that he will carry with him as memories into adulthood. That’s why I have decided to consciously limit the time I spend on the internet, trying to avoid this false sense of emergency that is so addictive and so predominant when one checks her emails 10,000 times a day.
Also I would like to focus more on my yoga practice as all these recent false emergencies have made me slip off again and neglect my daily practice. So I want to go back to spending more time trying to be present in real life, with my family and with myself, on my mat.
My recent experience trying to rescue four dairy cows has been quite challenging and I ended up getting into trouble with nearly all concerned parties (apart from the cows…) and that made me think a lot about what I want to do with FocalHeart. I knew that by getting involved with farmed animals, it would be quite hard emotionally, which is fine. I knew what I was getting into and I knew that dairy farming wouldn’t be the easiest area of farming to handle. I have been reflecting quite a lot about all of this lately… The life of a dairy cow is full of repetitive trauma. I know a dairy cow (who I really like a lot) who is 12 years old, still being milked twice a day and still giving birth to a calf every year… A calf that she might not get to have with her more than a couple of weeks… There is only so much a cow can take before she breaks… I have met quite a few broken cows and it’s so heartbreaking to see!
I’m definitely not advocating meat eating here, but at least grass fed animals reared for meat are pretty much completely left alone with minimal human disturbance, compared to dairy cows! So if that was to be the case… is lacto vegetarianism such a kind lifestyle on the animals?
The very few ethical farms that exist today truly believe in what they are doing, but their customers need to wake up and pop the bubble they are in.
I haven’t visited a lot of them but the few ethical farms that I have visited do care a lot about their ethical values. Their main problem is that they are too popular. They probably will dislike me even more for writing it publicly on the internet, but they are supporting too many customers because so many people agree with their values and make the ethical choice to shop there to support them. The feel good factor for shopping there is big. Now I’m not saying: “Hey people, don’t support your local ethical farms anymore”, I’m saying : “Hey people, start your own local ethical farm as there is a need for more of them”. A great way to change farming is to ‘become’ farming and to change it from the inside…
Currently there isn’t enough of them, and the demand for the highest animal welfare standards is increasing. All these well meaning customers are actually putting a big strain on the animals. Farms are at their maximum capacity, having the maximum amount of animals that their land can support, but the demand is unlimited and growing exponentially!
I’d like to say that again: ethical farms can only have a limited amount of animals living off their land but their customer base has no limits and some ethical farm shops even buy in products from other farms when they run out, so that their customers are not disappointed and won’t go shopping somewhere else. This success is putting more strain on the animals, and the farm ends up removing the calves from their mums earlier so they can get more milk in order to make more yoghurt, cream, cheese, etc… so that the shelves are not empty.
There is a serious need for more small scale, local, organic farms – there is no denying it. The world will not go vegan and the vast majority of people are buying their animal food from supermarkets, which are buying them in bulk for as cheap as possible which is having a devastating effect on farming and on the farmer’s life. Conventional farming will not change because they can’t. They are stuck with their mortgages and with ridiculously unrealistic quotas. To me, it seems that the very much needed change in farming will come from small local organic farms, as their customers make the conscious decision to support them because they are willing to support this change. As customers they have the power to encourage their local organic farm to take it a step further, in terms of animal welfare.
So people need to appreciate dairy and its hardship a bit more and stop drinking milk as if it was coming out of a tap. They need to implement discipline with it and consume it with respect and deep appreciation. They need to accept that there should be time without dairy in their local farm and not run to the supermarket to get it instead, as it’s putting strain on other cows somewhere else.
In my opinion the only way that farming will change, is if people start more small organic community farms to support their community and their community only. Customers need to understand that these small local farms have their limits and if they want to make a difference then they should tune in with the natural rythm of these farms and accept that, for instance when the cows are calving, people should try to go without cream, their favourite yoghurt or even dairy altogether for a while…
This issue brings up a lot of questions regarding people’s eating habits. It may be that being too stuck in a belief system or a particular dogmatic system might be one of the main reasons why things got so out of hand in the first place, as in the myth around dairy being such a staple, daily necessity? Also the myth around (grass fed organic) meat being the worst product in terms of animal cruelty, the myth of ethical shoppers who believe they are doing such a great thing by shopping at ethical farm shops and spending an absolute fortune there every week, when really they are causing a big strain on the animals who have to go through such hardship… Keep going there, but be mindful! Be grateful and appreciate every single animal product you buy for what it is, because behind every single animal product there is a sacrifice. May it be the sacrifice of a life, of a calf…
I’m not denying the need for animal foods in a human’s diet. I was vegan for eight years and at the end I wasnt doing well at all. I ended up undernourished. I love the idea of veganism, as an ideal, a vision for the future, and I hope that we, as a species evolve in that direction… but this is not the reality we live in right now. And right now, animal foods have played a big part in our evolution and are still essential for a lot of people. So telling people to go vegan is a nice idea but it’s not going to work. We all need to be kind to ourselves, and to each other… and to work on having a better understanding of death so it’s no longer the worst thing that can ever happen. Death happens all the time, so as my friend Dolly the cow told me, it’s good to think about it and to be aware of the fact that we, too, will die at some point. I have asked quite a few farmed animals what their thoughts were on death and most of them have healthier and more detached views on that subject and with more clarity than most of the humans I know!
Anyway… I’m off to get my son ready for bed. I have done it again… he is waiting for me and is trying to get my attention!
Have a lovely night!
It was such a strange day yesterday… a day where there was beauty with underlying sadness. You know, when beauty feels sad. The sun was out and it was warming everyones’ spirits all afternoon. My psychic abilities were very sharp and I could perceive things with a vibrant glow. When I came back home, I got the farmer’s text. It said: “Cows going to butcher tomorrow. Don’t know the time yet.” I had to go there straight away, to say goodbye, to see them one last time and to take the very last pictures of them as cows, which I have used in this very post…
On my way, I had to stop at the organic produce shop where I bought them a lot of parsnips, as a goodbye treat. I got to the farm late afternoon/early evening and as soon as I got to the milking parlour, the first cow I saw was Dolly. She grabbed my attention straight away. She was waiting to be milked outside of the parlour, and she was eager to connect with me. I picked up on her sense of emergency. She said “I’m glad you came, we need to talk”. Barbie was being milked right in front of me, Chicory was done and Nettle was to be next. I briefly spoke to the farmer and his apprentice before going around the back, to see the cows. By that point, Barbie was done and I was connecting with her, Dolly was in the other pen, trying to get to me.
Barbie is (was!) such a special cow! we had a very special connection together. She gave me a lot of very good advice regarding the book I’m in the middle of writing with the cows. She told me once that I should be a team player with that project and that I should accept help and ask for help. A few months later, she was giving me loads of advice when I facilitated my first ever Animal Communication workshop with them at the end of last summer. She said to me something very powerful that had such a strong impact on me: at the end of the workshop she said that I had to respect the relationship that the (at the time new) farmer had with the cows. She said that even if it wasn’t how I wanted it to be, I shouldn’t interfere and let his relationship be whatever it is meant to be. She taught me that everyone who comes to the farm has their own and unique relationship with the cows and I should always respect that and not interfere. This is by far the best piece of advice I have ever received regarding Animal Communication.
Then Winter came. Barbie gave birth to a male calf and that calf was taken away two weeks later. Barbie was devastated. I remember her walking around the barn, looking everywhere for her calf. She could hear, see and smell the other calves and they kept reminding her that she had lost hers. She told me that she felt as if she was lost in the dark. She had these big dark circles around her eyes, like someone who hadn’t slept for ages… and she was wandering around like a ghost, completely heart broken. I could feel her pain. The sadness, the loss… At the time I wrote about it here. She never really recovered from that last trauma. She was broken. She has been depressed and miserable ever since… and depression is contagious. Barbie’s depression has spread throughout the other cows in the barn, from then on.
Nettle and Barbie
Then I went to find Chicory who didnt feel like talking. She felt let down. The farmer has been trying to rescue her, with a local lady. It was all happening. He had built a strong case with the farm committee and as she was his favourite cow he was really hoping to save her… She was still strongly connected to the previous farmer. I briefly met that lady on Sunday evening. She was a bit of a show off… I didnt have a very good feeling about her. She was coming to milk Chicory by hand so the farmer could see how she was getting on before arranging for her to have the cow… Apparently it turned out that she had no food and no building sorted for Chicory. She was about to just let her stay outside. So it was decided that it wasn’t a viable option as Chicory would have needed food and shelter, especially as she was supposed to give birth there…
So Chicory knew that the farmer was sorting something out for her… it didnt work, and when I saw her for the last time, she was silent.
Chicory didn’t feel like eating the parsnips I had brought. She took it in her mouth, dropped it, sniffed it…
looked at me… and walked away.
I must say that the barn was very noisy as a few cows were in crisis mode. The remaining calves, the lucky ones who got to stay with their mums for a few months were all locked in a pen, and their mums couldn’t have access to them and they were going mental. The calves were calling their mums, the mums were calling back to the point where their throats were growing hoarse and they were losing their voices. Thistle came to find me and asked me to open the pen so that the calves could come out. I was very tempted and had to stop myself from doing so. But then I thought that as soon as the farm staff would find out they will split them up again… I apologised to her. She was mooing as loud as she could with her broken voice, urging me to help her. I told her that my help wasnt going to suffice. I tried to go and see the calves in their pen, and also to have a look at how it was closed… She screamed in my face, she was in crisis mode and then forced me out of the barn with her horns, pushing me towards the gate and she asked me to not come in. She said she wouldnt let any human come anywhere near that pen. She was worried for her calf. She feared that someone would come and take him away. I told her that the calves were probably going to be moved to another barn. I thought to myself that it was such a bad timing to separate the calves from their mums, right when these four cows are about to be sent off to slaughter…
Thistle telling me that if I wasn’t going to help her then I should stay away as she doesnt want any humans to take her calf away…
Thistle mooing at me telling me to stay away and crying for help
Thistle looking sad and feeling hopeless.
Thistle has always been very nice to me. I felt extremely sorry that I couldn’t help her… but farm staff were about and if I had indulged in my urge to set the calves free, it would have been obvious it was me and they would have had to put them back in straight away.
I felt attracted to the lower gate, pulled like a magnet… and as I was standing there, Dolly came to the gate and stood next to me. She was very still and looked at me. It was getting dark and the two pictures I took of her are too dark as you can see below (as I don’t use flash as a general rule and especially with animals…)
My last moments with Dolly. That’s how I’ll remember her… standing next to me in the dark… giving me her last message for you all, while I was stroking her, crying. I’ll never forget that moment. It was extremely moving.
Then I started to connect with the four cows who were due to leave the next day. I could feel that they were all giving me their last words. Here is the conversation we had:
Me: What are your last instructions for me?
All of them: You need to get the farmer to be more grounded. Before he communicates with us his preparation should be a grounded meditation.
For me: Pay attention to the signs around you. You receive information and messages all the time but you don’t always notice them.
Me: Barbie, Nettle, Dolly, Chicory… you are going tomorrow… They are sending you off. You are going to die tomorrow. You’ll have to be brave. don’t be scared. Tomorrow the sun will rise and you will go to the morning milking session as usual. Then during the day a truck will turn up and park down by the gate down there. You will be loaded on the truck, the four of you altogether. The truck will take you somewhere else, you will feel the wind on your face and everything will move quite fast while you are on the truck. You will arrive at a sad place, where you will be unloaded, then you will be in a line, it will be noisy and you will see and smell death. Humans will kill you: they will cut your throats open. I’m really sorry that humans are doing this to you. You’ll find it stressful. Do not worry, you will die quickly and then your spirit will leave your body and you’ll be free to go wherever you want.
Dolly: I’ll come back here and see the other cows and then I’ll come to visit you.
Me: Yes please, do! What’s your last message for humans?
Barbie and Dolly: Love. I’m glad it’s over, I’m glad to move on. Thank you for coming tonight to tell us about tomorrow. I’m glad it’s over
Me to Barbie: I could feel your pain since they took your last calf away… It was horrible. Shortly after it happened you told me you felt like you were completely lost in the dark…
Barbie: Yes I’m glad I don’t have to go through that again. I want to move on.
Dolly: People need to be reminded of death. They need to think about it regularly. It’s a part of life. Remember us, remember our story. Go and visit farms and meet the animals there, to remind yourself of death and that some beings are less fortunate.
To me: Pay attention to the signs around you. Enjoy, relax, don’t worry. Go with the flow, don’t try to have control, it’s pointless. You are not in control, ultimately.
It’s my last night in this body. Tomorrow I’ll see my last sunrise as a cow. I’m not scared. I know I won’t like it when they kill me but I’ll be relieved. Thank you for letting us know.
Live in the now.
Barbie had one last request : She asked me to get in touch with a human friend of hers that we both know (another animal communicator called Pea) , to let her know of her passing. I did.
Then I cried in silence, while stroking Dolly and telling her how much I loved her and how special she/they were. Eventually Dolly said goodbye and went to lie down and went in a meditative state.
I felt like praying for them. I did, with all my focus and all my heart, as hard as I could.
A picture of Dolly (forefront) that I took last December.
As I am writing this tonight, I can feel that they are with me, especially Barbie and Dolly. Their presence has made me shiver a few times.
I hope that this story will go through you, move your heart, and that you will allow yourself to feel sad. I also hope that you will not chose to react with anger, frustration or a vigilante mindset. These negative emotions will not take you to a happy place and it will not make any difference at all.
I would like to add a note here regarding the farmer and his apprentice. When I went to talk to them in the milking parlour last night, while she was milking Barbie the farmer’s apprentice said to me with her gentle voice and her lovely Scottish accent:
“I tried to tell them today, I don’t know if they heard me, but I did tell them”. They are both keen on animal communication and I have helped them to connect with the cows many times. They are young (early 20’s), with little power to make decisions and they are not bad people. The farmer’s apprentice has a natural ability to communicate with animals telepathically, even her Dad told me that she has always done it, as far as he can remember. They are just doing their best with the situation they have got which is not pretty. They do love the cows and they are doing their best. Who knows where their paths will take them?
I’m tired of the Animal Rights activists views, implying that things are either completely black or completely white and that any human involved in farming is an asshole. Things are more complicated than that. The thread that connects all beings with one another is very intricate. Everyone is doing their best with where they are at. Dairy farming is a very ugly trade, there is no questioning it, but the human beings who are caught up in it are only humans, with their own struggles and weaknesses.
So please let’s forgive one another, let’s not point the finger at each other, let’s not judge… Let’s try to understand them, from a place of love. When these cows were violently killed earlier on today, a part of every single one of us was violently killed with them, because we are all interconnected. That’s why the world is in such a state of confusion and destruction. Let’s not feed the ugliness in the world with more ugliness. Let’s try to heal it with love and kindness…
Thanks for reading me,
Goodbye beautiful Dolly (picture above), and a fond farewell to Chicory, Barbie and Nettle. You will be sadly missed. I love you all very much! Thank you for everything you taught me, for tolerating my presence in your space and for putting up with all my questions.
My entire brain space has been intensely focused on the cows for a few days. Most of that time hasn’t been spent in their company at all but instead trying to organise things & communicate with man people online – something that I’ve had to take a break from as it can over-stimulate my mind & keep me awake at night. I lie there in bed thinking about what could be done again and again… and I end up feeling awful because that’s all I can think about, my mind is always elsewhere and I end up not being present for my family and neglecting them.
Yesterday was both beautiful and sad at the same time. I had such a lovely time in the afternoon! I felt extremely lucky to spend two hours sat in the barn, sharing some precious time with the cows with such lovely people! I’m always amazed how groups of people create themselves in such an organic way! I really feel that there is something special with these Animal Communication workshops with the cows. It’s amazing to watch people feeling that call from the cows. Whoever is meant to be there, will be there.
But my heart sunk when I realised last night that we wouldn’t be able to save the cows from their terrible fate. Still, I did hold some hope that maybe we could save one of them (the farmer’s favourite) (who is pregnant) as he had arranged for a lady who lives down the road to have her, but apparently it turned out that she didn’t have any building or any food sorted out for the cow, so the farm ended up saying no. They don’t want the cows to go to a sanctuary either as they are concerned that the place may not have the right facilities to transition the cows out of dairy farming. So they are going to slaughter. Despite all my efforts to find them somewhere to go, in the end it’s not meant to be. I think that these are just excuses though. The core of the matter is more to do with money. If they were willing to let them go for free then they would, but as they could get a significant amount of money for them, they would rather save themselves the bother and make some money.
I think the only thing I can do now is to take the farmer to visit Hugletts Wood Farm Animal Sanctuary so that he can see what a Cow Sanctuary looks like, and next time he will be able to vouch for such place. With farming it really is one baby step at the time, which can be quite disheartening. More cows will go this year, I think even the bull is supposed to go after about 13 years on the farm. It saddens me, but I’ll have to accept it. My four and half year old son was watching me moving Heaven and Earth on Saturday trying to save these four cows. I explained to him why I was so busy staring at my computer screen all day and he said to me:
“So are the cows going to die?”
I said: “well, hopefully not, that’s why I’m trying to find somewhere else for them to go so they can be safe”
– But they don’t want to die! why are they going to kill them?
– No you’re right, I don’t think they want to die.
– So they can’t be killed then if they don’t want to die! What about the very big daddy then? He’s not going to die, is he?
The very big daddy is the name Thom gave to Bob, the bull. As I knew that his departure has been on the cards for a while I asked recently and I have been told that he was due to leave this coming summer. So I said:
– I think he will have to go too at some point this year.
– But we can’t let the very big daddy go, we can’t! I don’t want him to be killed!
No. I don’t want him to be killed either. Now don’t get me wrong, I don’t think that death should be feared and avoided at all costs: when I talk about death with animals, generally speaking they are not particularly scared of dying. In fact, they seem to be able to handle it better than most of the humans I know! For them it’s natural, like a contract you sign when you are born: you accept that at some point you will have to die. They don’t have all the emotional attachements to life and all of the fears surrounding death… BUT they don’t want to be killed, and they are scared of the idea of being in pain, the unknown, the stress, having to go somewhere, to be loaded on a truck… Farmed animals would rather die when they feel they are ready to die and they would like to die peacefully on the farm, where they were born. They usually dont get that luxury unfortunately, as their dead bodies are worth money. They can be sold and eaten so they are transferred to slaughter houses when their carers feel that they have passed their prime in terms of productivity.
My hope is to somehow find a way for dairy cows to retire. I have tried to convince the farm to allow some of the older cows to retire and be left to just ‘be’. That was how I was planning to spend the money I get for the workshops with the cows, I wanted to pay for the retirement of one or two healthy older cows so they could stay on the farm, and I was told it was a good idea, one that could be discussed further. I have been told last week that now they need the space. No wonder the cows have been so unhappy lately! Having carers who change their minds all the time and can’t stick to their own decisions must be quite hard to handle, especially if it’s your life that is at stake every time!
Anyway… I have made the committment to stay in a place of love, understanding and neutrality and I can feel that I’m starting to drift away from that right now…
These are hard decisions to make. And I know that no one is happy to see them go.
There will be more happy times. and more sad times too.
Farming. What an odd system!
I think I will try to contact these four cows in spirit in a few days time and see how they are all doing.
Please join me in sending them all our love and positive thoughts in their passing…
Millions of thanks to everyone who responded to my appeal on Saturday. I got to meet some extraordinary people! Thank you for your messages, help and suggestions, I have kept good notes of all the places you have suggested me and I’ll make sure to use them again next time.
We had such an amazing time last Sunday, during the first installment of my 3 part Animal Communication workshop with the cows. I’m doing a re run of last Sunday tomorrow, for a mum and her son who had a bug last week and couldn’t be with us back then. I’m really looking forward to share this very special time with the cows with them tomorrow! I’m very excited to work with children on this. It’s amazing to witness their natural ability to communicate with animals. They seem to have this inner closeness to animals. They just look at them in the eyes and they feel what’s going on instantly. It’s beautiful and it gives me a lot of hope for the future too!
I’m deeply in debt for the herd of dairy cows who guided me patiently through the maze of telepathic communication with animals. I facilitate Animal Communication workshops with them on request on a regular basis and half of the money I receive through these workshops with the cows go towards a Cows Fund to create something nice for them through a non farming related project, for instance finding them a retirement home and being able to get them there.
My first project is an emergency: I’m currently trying to rescue four cows who are scheduled to go to butchers in a few days time.
The farm who owns them is in the middle of deciding wether or not they will let them go for free. I have contacted a few animal sanctuaries who might decide to have one, two, three or all of them, but it all depends on the farm gesture of kindness towards these animals (they could get £700-£800 per cow from butchers). Some of them are pregnant and they all have mastitis. They are lovely, still have their horns on and would probably need to be hand milked for a while.
Dairy farming is not a particularly kind business. Farmers tend to disconnect from their hearts when they go in “farming mode” and have to make such decisions. Then they suppress it down somewhere and it haunts them for a long time. They are in a very difficult position too. I feel it’s important to support them to stay heart centered at all times and help them when they are trying to do their best with the situation they’ve got, which is not pretty . It’s very hard sometimes but I try to be non judgmental and to respect the farmer’s relationship/connection with the animals he is taking care of. I really don’t want to create another division as in good vs bad, I believe that every time you launch a war with something outside of you then you create a war inside yourself as well. Farming badly needs heart centered people at the moment and they are the ones who struggle to last very long because they can’t handle the pressure, coming from everywhere. I’m really hoping that by getting more and more people to connect with the cows they will develop their own relationship with them, and get involved with farms to give them a gentle push so they can develop a new way of farming animals: on a very small scale and with a harmonious relationship with the cows. I feel it’s important to not desert the cows and to be by their sides, to remind farmers/carers what the cows want and to try to alleviate the cows suffering. It’s not easy but it’s important to be with them and try to help. A lot of the time there is not much we can do, but I feel it’s important to not give up and try again and again… eventually it will work! So I hope that we can find a place for at least one or two of these cows, to give them a second chance to heal their traumas and to end their life in peace so they don’t carry too much pain/fear with them.
I’m asking you to help me here via donating some money that will go towards the transport of these cows if the farm agrees to let them go for free. I need to be prepared as if they do agree we will have to act quickly as the farm want them gone asap.
If they don’t agree to let them go for free, then I’ll have to see. I don’t really want to buy them, I would rather that these four cows become a symbol of Hope, a shining example of the beauty that arises when humans choose to act from their hearts instead of their calculator/brains. Of course every single life matters but I don’t want to become the soap that makes a farm look and smell good instantly while receiving money for it! It has to come from them otherwise it doesn’t mean anything. I’m happy to find safe retiring homes for their dairy cows but I want them to participate too! I know that they can afford it and it would be such a more powerful message if the farm agrees to allow their cows to retire in peace instead of just killing them for money.
I truly believe that if we want to change farming we will have to change it from the inside. We need to understand how the whole machine works so we can see how we can turn it into something more fair, more harmonious and beneficial for the animals and humans. So if they were to refuse to let them all go for free, then I’ll be very sad and disapointed but I’ll have to accept it and try again another time. In this case I’ll either refund you the money you have donated or it will go towards this Cows Fund to finance future rescue projects.
As I work with farmed animals on a regular basis I do often come across opportunities to rescue them. I do my best to always do so, whenever I can, but because every time it’s an emergency situation I need to have access to money quickly to get the animals transported to a sanctuary, for example, or to get a vet to come and help. I would never be able to afford it on my own, which is why it’s crucial that I get together a fund to be able to act quickly.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and if you want to donate you can use the Donate Button below, thanks!
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This Sunday I’ll be celebrating Mother’s Day with my very dear friends the cows, as I’ll be facilitating an Animal communication workshop with them. All dairy cows are mothers and they need to be recognised and celebrated as such! In India cows are considered sacred as they are referred to as the “Mothers of India”.
The workshop is 6 hours long, broken into 3 sunday afternoons (from 2pm onwards) starting this coming Sunday and then on the 24th March and 07th of April 2013. It will take place in a biodynamic dairy farm in East Sussex (I’ll email you the details once you have booked). There are a few spaces left (not that many though, so if you are interested in joining us you will need to book promptly).
We will finish at around 4pm, everyone is more than welcome to stay around and chat with the farmer during the evening milking (from 4h15pm onwards). The farmer will be with us all afternoon as he is very keen on animal communication.
This week, we will be doing a few simple guided meditations/ breathing techniques and then we will be getting on with simple exercises to start communicating with the cows on a heart to heart level. The attendees will get to explore how they receive messages from the cows (feelings, voices/sounds, images, all at once?).
We will be sitting in the barn, with the cows and calves. It’s absolutely safe but I thought I should mention it. During the last afternoon we might go and connect with other animals on the farm depending on the interests of the group.
The workshop is over 3 sunday afternoons so that the attendees get the time to practice or just reflect on what has been said during the workshop.
The price is: £50 per adult and £35 per child (7 years old onwards) for the whole workshop. I need to know in avance how many people will be there, so please do let me know if you are coming!
Some of the money will go towards creating something nice for the cows.
You can book easily via the PayPal button on this page
Have a lovely evening, and again: all my gratitude goes towards all of you for showing your interest in FocalHeart via reading me, commenting, watching my videos, liking my facebook page, sharing and suscribing
Testimonial from the previous workshop I have facilitated with the cows:
“A lovely day. Very clear guidance that helped me feel more confident. Nice to be in a small group and ask anything we needed to. Very supportive and interesting. And beautiful cows! A peaceful, healing experience. Thank you Noémie!”
– Anna Fraser, Scientific Officer within the Farm Animals Department at the RSPCA.
Have a lovely night,
This morning, I have had to deal with an abusive reaction from someone regarding my forthcoming workshop with the cows (it’s due to start on Mother’s Day, in less than two weeks time). My first reaction was to fall apart. I cried, I was deeply hurt. When you pour all of your heart into something and it’s met with a mean, harsh & abusive response even from just one person, it’s disheartening. This person basically said that I was an “apologist for slavery”, that what I was doing was “hippy nonsense tipping over into disgusting, deluded profiteering” and that “I was exploiting the cows misery pretending I was doing them a favour by being a bit nicer about it”. I was crushed. I cried and started to doubt myself. I believe that there is a bit of truth in every lie, and I also believe that I probably have something to learn from this painful experience. This person has applied pressure to a part of myself I’m not completely at peace with and it got me to reflect a lot about the point of what I was trying to do. Was it worth doing? Should I be charging any money at all for workshops? Am I making money out of the cows misery? Does it actually make any difference at all to the cows that people come to listen to them and spend time with them? At the end of the day, they can tell us/me all the things they would like to be different with the situation they are in, but what can we do to make it change? We are not farming them, we don’t have any power in the decision making process of what is happening to them.
Don’t get me wrong here, I’m not calling for people to be sorry for me or to defend me. I just wanted to share this painful experience with you as it did send me to a place of self reflection… I even considered giving all animal communication related things a rest, regardless of all the work and energy I have put into this.
This person’s reaction is something I have been observing for over a decade now, in the animal rights movement. Some people can be very unkind and mean to one another. They pass heavy judgements and tend to destroy other’s attempts or initiative if it doesnt fit perfectly into their vision of what people should and should not be doing. I have even been like that myself, so I know exactly what it feels like.
I have witnessed countless times people with a genuine interest being ridiculed and bullied because they suggested a very creative idea to raise awareness about animal suffering and it was met with cold, harsh disapproval. It happens a lot on the grassroots activist forums and websites, and also inside big corporate Animal rights organizations. I did work for one and was very disappointed to discover how staff members were treated, bullied, managed through guilt and were made to feel very unhappy and frustrated. Miserable & angry, staff under pressure don’t last very long: they end up resenting their job, even hating it. They are no longer creative or productive and ultimately this has an affect on the animals. Hence the high turn over of staff in Animal Rights/Welfare organizations. I have been in that situation and I was actually good at my job in the beginning. I made a lot of sacrifices for the organization I was working for. I was working around the clock, even when heavily pregnant. It sent me to a dark, sad place and the way I was treated really put me off Animal rights activism. Now that I know the ‘behind the scenes’ of big animal rights organizations it doesn’t appeal to me to support them at all. I feel like I would be supporting the very things I feel the world would be better off without!
It took me years to heal and to recover and to find my own way to help animals.
I interviewed Captain Paul Watson a few years ago and he told me that to him the best way people can help is to use their own unique talent to support the cause you strongly believe in. If you are good at and love photography then offer your skill to help, if you are a lawyer, or a teacher, or anything… offer your talent towards that cause. I completely agree. Love is what makes the world go around and passionate individuals achieve far greater results than money hungry organizations. Your passion for something is a more powerful tool than donating money. Talking passionately about something you really believe in will spread and get people think at a deeper level, further than just another fundraising appeal.
So instead of destroying each other’s initiative to make a humble difference in the world, why don’t we support each other, for instance with kind words? Why can’t we be kind and respectful to one another? Why be abusive and mean to someone? You don’t know where they are coming from in their life. You don’t know what inner struggles they have, and what got them where they are in the first place?
At around midday, Billie Dean‘s newsletter arrived in my inbox. I read it and was amazed to see that she was talking exactly about that.
In her newsletter, Billie Dean stressed out the importance of supporting one another, to make a positive difference in the world… donating money if you can, to support individuals who are trying to bring their humble skills to make this world a better place… may it be a street performer, a blogger, or any individual who is trying to add a bit of colour, a bit of warmth, a bit of love and kindness around them.
Before judging, pointing the finger, undermining & criticizing what others are doing… try to find a place of love within yourself. A lot of the time, people who conduct such agressive/negative behaviour towards others are crying out for love themselves and have a lot of healing to do with their own wounds. Being mean to someone because you disagree with them is a very immature way of handling the disagreement. Having the need to hurt someone or “put them in their place” because they are not doing things your way, is a very childish behaviour indeed! it shows a lack of empathy and a lack of understanding of the bigger picture.
As far as I am concerned, I will take on board some of what this person is saying and I’ll put the brakes on facilitating workshops with farmed animals. I’ll only do it on request for now. It does sadden me as I really thought that by getting people to connect with farmed animals, it will ultimately help them develop their own personal relationship with the animals and they will be able to experience for themselves where this connection takes them… but I don’t want to advertise such workshops if it can come across as me trying to profit and exploit animal misery. I don’t want to become an easy target for the frustration of animal lovers for the time being as ultimately it will have a negative effect on the animals I’m trying to help. Maybe when I’m a bit more established and people approach me then I will organize such events again. But for now, I’d rather avoid the snow ball effect.
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Thank you for reading :)
This video explores the potential for dairy cows to offer genuine & powerful healing to people… This is a role that they are actively seeking to fulfill – something that is obvious when we take the time to slow down, connect with & listen to them… Candy and Maria also share their interesting insights regarding the sacred connection that humans and animals used to have, and how and why the cows want to restore it… They want to be around humans but they would like humans to realise that they are amazing healers, not “just” milk providers.
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Tonight I should upload a new video on my Youtube channel. I’ve been quite busy creating and finalising this website for the last couple of days, that the video footages I have recorded with the cows on Sunday have been set aside for a while! I think I should get around to upload one of them on youtube tonight… so stay tuned! In the mean time feel free to give me any feedback about this website!