i want to write because…

Animal Communication, creativity, Yoga

“I want to write because I find expression of my thoughts and emotions releasing and revealing”

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Hooded crow (Corvus cornix) in flight

… and also because it takes me to an unknown path.

When I go down that path,

I hear a crow and I feel safe,

like I have a life long friend by my side.

I might sometimes write my way to Africa,

sometimes only down the road,

but it always takes me somewhere safe, and clear.

I connect with my old friend soul,

together we detangle the yarn of life.

The happy times, the grieving times,

the times when I feel lost and alone, unloved

and the times when I feel life is the most precious gift.

I heal my relationship with others, and with myself.

I learn to trust, others and myself.

I reflect, self-reflect

Doubt and self-doubt…

And I always feel better for it.

“Live your life as an experiment” – Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche.

Hammerhead sharks, Crow and Blue Swimmer Crab

Animal Communication, Animals, creativity, My Poems, Yoga

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Hammer-head sharks, Crow and Crab

revealed themselves to me that morning,

after i sat in silence

on a chair in a circle, in a village.

the hammerhead sharks came first

and i felt safe instantly.

through me they sent an invitation

for a blond mermaid looking girl

to explore her emotions

a bit deeper on paper.

My prompt led her to meet whales,

then butterflies.

i can’t help but feeling a pull

towards the hammerhead shark

whenever I feel lonely, left out or sensitive

Hammerhead shark reminds me that

spending time on my own isn’t a curse

but a great opportunity

to swim fluidly through the waves of these emotions of mine

before they turn into unmovable rocks.

the hammerhead shark makes me feel protected on many levels

and i’m grateful for them to come to me.

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Crow keeps coming to me too…

Although i know he is often around but unseen,

as a friend and protector.

yesterday he kept me company on 2 paths

the path of words unravelling from my soul

and the cycle path on the way home.

crow doesn’t usually say much

he is usually just a friendly presence,

watching over me like a close friend

as he landed on the path in front of me:

laid back, relaxed, amused, as if he was making fun of me

like an old friend.

i sometimes wonder if

crow isn’t a manifestation of my own father?

Blue crab asked me to tell his story,

like with everyone’ stories there are sad and happy times,

magic, light, wisdom, good meals and dark sea beds.

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Ferdinand Bauer, Portunus Pelagicus Blue Swimmer Crab – watercolour 1806-1826, the Natural History Museum, London.

“I’m fast and I won’t be prey. I bury myself in the sand and I like watching the light coming from the top, sometimes it’s very bright and it lights up the sea bed. I’m used to darkness. I don’t like being picked up or handled. My life is simple you might say, but for me it’s full of action, drama, vibrations, rippling sounds… fears, the satisfaction of a good meal… Maybe not so many internal brainy turmoils as I take life as it comes, I live in the moment. I’m in the now and life is good” – Blue Swimmer Crab.

Blue Swimmer Crab has fascinating eyes, blue claws and an interesting pattern on his back and legs. His two front claws look like two pelican beaks with lots of teeth. The pattern on his back looks like a map of a world, with the shape of symmetrical lands.

Crabs feel very grateful when people free them from careless fishermen, SO do what you need to do to get them out of the crab pots or buckets before they end up on a fishmonger stall and boiled alive.

Whenever you feel that pull to set them free don’t ignore that call, they are calling you for help and need you to listen to your heart. Don’t dwell too much on how, just get them out of there!

Look in the eyes of a crab, and he will speak to your heart. Listen carefully for his message is simple but profound.

When you see someone fishing, focus your intention on telling the fishes in the water to go swimming somewhere else and stay away from that zone. Send that message out clearly again and again, it will work!

Stuck in the mud

Yoga

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Photograph: Thom Rimmer.

I feel like i have been stuck in an oozy mud for too long. I realised this morning that as the seasons are changing, the earth is spinning and the rest of the natural world is getting on with their lives and what they need to do at this time of the year, I have been stuck in the same old mud. I have been witnessing these changes but instead of embracing them, instead of allowing them to scoop me up and learning to ride them, going with their flow, I have spent years resisting these changes. Refusing to budge, refusing to go with any flow. I have grown roots, very deep in the ground and I am not moving. I am resisting. I might sway here and there as strong winds try to push me to move forward but so far my roots were so deep that I didn’t budge. “Haha! victory!” I hear that stubborn and smug part of me saying, but it’s quite sad really. Today it feels like resisting change is pointless. It’s a lost battle. We might refuse to change and stick to our only known ways, but in doing so, I’m sure we are missing out so much on the beauty of the world, the beauty of relationships, of discovering new places and meeting new people. I have stayed put for years. I stuck to my good old oozy patch of mud, begrudging this dark, cold, damp place but it has grown to feel familiar and now I find myself clinging onto it.

I can grow roots deep in the ground, but maybe I also need to remind myself that I’m not a tree…

So what does stop one from embracing change? fear? control issues? (tick, tick).

How can one release this and let go of these obstacles?

After all, I used to think that the unknown was the most exciting adventure, before I started to really think about all this, quite a while back…

And as you try to let go, more challenges are thrown at you. More tests to pass or fail. If you pass the constant assault of tests that life throws at you, well done. It’s a wild ride, but hold on tight, it’s worth it. If you fail only once, you are back to square one. Like the snakes and ladders game but on the back of a berserk horse. This year, you have to skillfully and gracefully juggle with these challenges, while riding full speed on a wild horse – if you were born during a horse year of course.

Good luck to all of you :)

I find that breathing helps. Just focusing on the breath, counting the inbreaths and extending the outbreaths up to doubling and sometimes tripling the count of the inbreaths. In yoga it’s called a Pranayama, or a breath controlled exercise. At this point in my life I’m convinced Pranayama is like magic.

Reknown yoga teacher T.K.V. Desikachar said that Pranayama is what westerners needed the most, due to the busy-ness of our lives and sky rocketing stress levels.

It seems like I might be able to breath out enough to release myself of these roots I have grown. I will have to remind myself to breath, in and out, every time I forget. After all, we are all being ‘breathed’. It’s happening, whether we are aware of it or not… Just like the seasons, the earth spinning and the rain… so we might as well admire it and enjoy it!

 

Birthday Week

Thom, Yoga

Woods

This week was Thom’s Birthday Week.

We had a great party with Thom’s friends in the woods/valley near our house. It was such a beautiful day: a pack of wild children running around the woods, climbing trees (amongst other things), hiding in dens, playing in streams, eating fresh home made bread, eating chocolate cake, wearing “bounaches” just for the picture…

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The Moustache Crew was here… When they wore moustaches they were called Bert, Charlie and Jack…

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 All the kids went back home with a seed bomb each, now they can scatter some native wild flower seeds in remembrance of this glorious afternoon we spent altogether! W. amazed me as he decided to leave his seed bomb on the Airman’s grave, as a WWII memorial offering.

The next day was Thom’s actual birthday day. It was a quiet and simple day, slowing down, opening presents throughout the day and playing with his new toys :)

Then the two following days were spent meeting up with friends and trying out the new skate park with Daddy.

Today Thom has chicken pox. I thought it would be nice to end his birthday week with a last pressie, handmade, just for him, so I made him an owl this afternoon…

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It’s my very first felted animal and as I can’t follow instructions I just improvised… And she turned out ok I think.

It’s special because the owl is “his” special animal and I made it myself, using the fleece we had collected from the woods and valley near our house. We are moving in a few days, we will still be living in Ashdown Forest, but in a town. Of course the forest will still be next door and we will now be able to use our bikes to get around which I am very excited about, as I’m fed up with driving all the time. So this week was also a bit of a moving-on celebration, having friends over in “our” valley to celebrate Thom’s 6th birthday and taking a bit of this magical place with us, with this little owl…

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Tomorrow I am off to my yoga teacher training for the day. No doubt another interesting journey :)

Have a lovely night,

Noemie.

Green Tara

My Poems, Yoga

Green Tara

A delightful line drawing of Green Tara by the master of Tibetan arts Sherab Palden Beru.

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Green Tara

As I sat in the lotus position

I settled in meditation

I noticed the rainbow in front of my eyes

Nature reminding me of the beauty

In the world all around me,

No need for because’s, no need for why’s.

Then this message came to me:

“I know no fear”

I felt that familiar comforting presence

Of Green Tara, I can feel her near

“I know no fear”

“I know no fear”

I can feel her pouring strength,

into my whole being.

And the little rainbow has turned green and is flickering.

As I start chanting Tara’s mantra in my head

My lips followed

I can feel my soul, my heart, my physical body

Filling up with courage, strength and feeling invincible

I keep chanting and the energy inside me

Keeps filling up, up, up, like a bottle.

The rainbow is now completely green

Green. Emerald green.

The colour of my heart chakra

Emerald green.

The colour of Green Tara.

Now I force myself to stay still

to NOT reach for a pen and paper

to write down how I feel.

Sit still, observe, take it all in

As the blessing is taking place

Stay here, stay now, plugged in

As the healing is taking place

“Please Green Tara can you help me

Please can you heal my back

So I can be a better karma yogi,

A warrior staying on her track”

Then I felt the warmth

Enveloping my body, going down my spine

I felt that loving healing light bath

Coming from the power of this feminine divine

Green Goddess who appears

By the side of those who need to be reminded

That THEY, too know no fear.

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May I be still enough to appreciate the beauty around me,

May Green tara always bless my life and the life of all sentient beings

May I make room for my yoga practice everyday

To remember who I am:

A humble Karma Yogi on her path to help others.

Just a comet.

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Noemie.

On Connecting with the Heart…

Animal Communication, Animals, My Poems, Videos, Yoga

As some of you, dear readers, may already know, I have spent some time over the last few years exploring the extremely profound experience one has when connecting with the heart. Heart to Heart communication can take many forms such as telepathy, animal communication but also art, poetry or music. It requires us to be open, to be still and to listen. This openness means taking the shield down and foregoing shame, shyness and any kind of worry about what other people may think. And of course, being observant. This heart-felt way of connecting with other beings requires courage and open mindedness and the willingness to listen. It’s a path for the warriors, the bold ones who are willing to embrace new ideas and ways of thinking.

Connecting with Nature with our hearts is, I believe, what would ultimately heal our society.

If only everyone were to spend 5 minutes a day just paying attention to Nature around them and allowing the healing to take place…

Just noticing what direction the wind is blowing, or the subtle transformation of the trees every day, or noticing and listening to the bird song filling the air, connecting with a dog or a cat, lying on the grass to watch the clouds passing by or admire the beautiful artwork of a spider spinning her web…

Or just walking barefoot on the earth, acknowledging the animals you meet and the natural world around you, even if it’s just a small garden or a park…

Taking the time to whisper something in the ears of the animals who live with or around you…

Just 5 minutes everyday, spent connecting with the natural world with an open heart, taking it in and letting it go through you… Try it and tell me how you feel :)

This video tells you how it works, and I hope that it will make you reflect on the power of connection through the Heart with other earthlings (plants included).

Noemie.

On Creativity…

Animal Communication, Yoga

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My recent times have been busy with home-educating my son, my yoga course, gardening,  enjoying quiet family time, educating myself on the Ayurvedic system (and being amazed at how much it makes sense), and spending quality time in the woods with my canine friend Tara.

I’m feeling the need to connect with my creativity so I’ve been writing regularly, enjoying looking around me with a sense of wonder, and I even started to draw again.

I think all human beings need to find ways to express their creativity… Music and Photography used to be my ways of expressing myself back in my 20’s, and when I became a mum I started to cook a lot instead and of course I have a well-documented child, as I took quite a lot of photos of him as a baby and toddler.

Although at some point I had no camera… that was a dark era!

Portrait photography used to be my specialty, I used to enjoy taking portraits of animals a lot, and also trees, flowers, stones… I did take a lot of portraits of people too. Some of them were famous in their scene, others were famous with their Mums… it didn’t matter to me who they were. With every single being I had the honour to photograph (note I’m deliberatly not using the expression “taking” a photo…) I got to have a glimpse of their soul, and I must say that with animals that experience is often a lot more powerful than with humans, because animals just “let you in” without any attempt to shield anything.

Since being a Mum I have been constantly amazed by the sense of creativity that is innate to children. They are naturally creative as they don’t have any blockages within their creative process or great expectations for the result. Making a mess certainly doesn’t stop them getting started. Most of us adults have been conditioned when we were kids to care about how the things we make/create look like. We were compared with one another by thoughtless teachers or parents, some of us were told we were not good at arts, or that we didn’t have any talent in a particular subject whereas others may have been told they were creative geniuses and had to live up to the expectations that come with such a statement… I have met quite a few very talented artists and some of them seemed to be carrying their gift like a heavy load on their shoulders… that’s possibly why :-)

But for kids, art is just easy:

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Thom and I go for long walks in the woods regularly and it amazes me to see how he comes up with Land Art projects on his own, and really enjoys immersing himself in the zone of creativity, creating a world made out of stones, earth and sticks…

He started to write on his own last year, because he was attracted by letters. So he started copying them on his own and now he writes his own name on everything and inserts random letters in his drawings as a part of the picture, because he likes the look of them.

Nothing seems to intimidate him, a few months ago we went to march to protest against the badger cull in the UK. I asked him to make his own sign and he just drew a badger, from the top of his head, just like that:

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Obviously I’m aware that it doesn’t look exactly like a real badger, but I really like the fact that he didnt have anything holding him back from just doing it, even if he has never done it before!

(Re)opening the creativity channel doesnt need to be a complicated process. Even if as adults we may have forgotten the simplicity of just drawing or painting whatever comes to us. It is in fact a very liberating activity.

I find that writing a few pages first thing every morning helps. Most of the time I just start to write with no particular goal and my ideas just articulate themselves, and as I allow the pen to connect with my soul I realise in amazement that I’m releasing a few things that were stuck somewhere, in the back of my mind.

Going somewhere we have never been before can help, and also revisiting old places every once in a while to re discover them with new eyes is definitely an interesting experience too.

The practice of Yoga is a great way to release old blockages, to connect with ourselves and discover new possibilities – extending and stretching our own limitations.

Carrying a note pad and pen with you when out and about is useful as you may feel like writing something down while being in an inspiring place, such as the woods or the sea front… or in a cafe in town. One of my favourite activities back when I was travelling a lot used to be sitting down in a cafe somewhere and just writing anything that would go through my mind. Sometimes it was bits of conversations I could pick up around me, or words from a song… I have filled lots and lots of books like this. With poetry it sometimes feels that there is no thread to follow at all… but every single entry is an instant of my life. I would just spend hours writing, filling up pages and pages… and I would also sketch a lot.

Music is a great way to release blockages too. Singing makes you feel great, drumming can be very liberating and dancing is a very powerful way to release emotional build up!

The possibilities are infinite, but if you feel stuck you need to feed and nurture your creative self. That can be done through spending some time on your own in an inspiring place, to reconnect with yourself, and recharge.  That can be in nature, in the woods, in a park, in the mountains, by the sea or in a museum, a cafe…

Sometimes yoga teachers advise their students to take on a creative activity to release certain blocks, so they might advise them to start playing a musical instrument, or to start singing. Creativity is a very healing process if we are open to let go of our fears/apprehensions and just go for it!

Releasing blockages through creativity is empowering and very useful when one is learning to communicate telepathically with animals or any other beings. It stretches our minds to towards infinite possibilities, giving us a sense of strength and joyfulness that elevates us to a higher state of consciousness because we are really connecting with ourselves and the world around us…

So don’t fear judgements or criticisms and enjoy every single step of your unique creative process, and remember: The journey is more important than the destination.

Namaste!

Noemie.

Sound Healing

Yoga
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Thom’s floating guitar… Yesterday evening he went in the garden to play his guitar and that’s how I found it as I was coming out to bring it in… I guess Thom got side-tracked and just hung it there…

I’m a firm believer that we can release a lot of emotional stuff while listening to/playing music. Music and sounds are very powerful healing tools… singing, drumming, in fact: playing any instrument or just getting carried away listening to your favourite song and singing it at the top of your lungs are all great ways to release emotional tension.

Through singing we can release unspoken feelings that we struggle to put into words and vocalise.

I remember a yoga teacher friend of mine used to play music with her teenage daughter to open the communication channels… and through regular jamming sessions the mum and daughter ended up being able to catch up on the events of the day and discuss tough subjects… I think it’s a brilliant way to connect with kids/teenagers. I would love to have something like that going in my family now! Thom and I used to go to a drum circle every Monday evening but then one day we went and we were the only ones there. Thom didnt like having the teacher’s full attention on him during the whole session and refused to go back there ever since. I think now, one year later he is just about to agree to give it another try…

A lot of animals love music and they have their favourite bands too… my dog is a huge fan of Radiohead and she goes in a deep trance everytime they are being played in our house. She doesnt like punk rock so much (unlike my 5 year old who loves “fast music” as he calls it to run and jump around the house full speed). She prefers classical music and music with several layers and a depth of atmosphere…

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Thom playing his guitar…

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Thom releasing accumulated tensions on the piano… it sounds a bit like drumming…

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I love chanting during my yoga practice. The resonance of the sound throughout my body feels like I’m tuning a musical instrument.

This week at my yoga class, our yoga teacher treated us with Sound Healing. She brought her Tibetan singing bowls to the class and offered us Sound Healing meditation at the end for relaxation. She connected with all of our main chakras using different bowls. Through visualisation and sound we got to experience very powerful healing of our psychic centers thoughout the entire body. It was incredible. I had to go to her class twice this week just because it felt so good!

It helped me a lot, on different levels. Now I feel I have more clarity, and I feel much lighter, ready to let go of unnecessary stuff. Today I let go of my old website. My photography website. I had it up and running since 2002 or 3. I spent a lot of time on that website. Like hours, even days of my life. But now it just feels right to move on and get rid of it. I feel totally comfortable just using this one now, to simplify things a bit more.

So I’m actually quite excited to turn this page and embrace a new chapter in my life.

My friend Annika is in labour right now and she told me last week that she was going to sing during the birth, for pain relief and concentration… It’s a lovely way to welcome a new baby into the world, it’s such a great way to be born: on the sweet notes of the singing of his mother’s voice…

I’ll leave you on such sweet thoughts,

Have a lovely night, and please join me in sending all my positive thoughts to Annika and her new baby right now…

Noémie.