Knit, knit, knit…

“Knit on with confidence and hope, through all crises” – Elizabeth Zimmermann

This is what’s on my needles today:

imageA pair of mittens. I have mentioned them here before…

The felted flower at the top is made from the pilling and fuzz balls that appear on hand-knitted garments after they have been worn a while… I thought I could make a good use of them, by turning them into flowers! (I’m planning on making Christmas Decorations with them too).

Boy is very pleased with his new woolly socks… (which are also mentioned HERE):

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Although they have been sitting in his drawer for a while, He has started wearing them today… They are great inside wellies!

I have been toying with the idea of writing the pattern down to put it on Ravelry, but I’m not sure if it would be of any interest to anyone…

The Crafty Crusader has given me the inspiration I needed to have a look inside that bag again…

She wrote this post, about this Work In Progress she currently has on her needles… it looks beautiful.

I am sorry to say, I have been having that same WIP hidden away in a bag for months now. Well the yoke on mine was going to be with paper dolls, like on the original pattern. But I have to unravel the whole thing, because it’s too tight. The sleeves are too tight. The whole thing is too tight. I knitted it all the way up to the yoke, and… no. I look like a fat sausage squeezed inside a road bike inner tube (please don’t analyse this).

That’s how I started knitting socks after socks, after socks. Well, knitting socks is nice and addictive. But I have also been subconsciously processing my failure, learning new knitting techniques and through knitting, knitting and knitting a bit more, just getting a bit better at it, one project at a time. And now, I am thinking that I could just unravel the whole thing, make it 2 sizes bigger (yes it’s that bad) and knit a yoke of paper owls instead of paper dolls! This idea rekindled some sense of hope and excitement with that project. Until now the thought of it just made me look up at my eyebrows and sigh.

Although even when I finish a project, I pretty much always feel disappointed. It’s very odd. I can’t just enjoy the fact I have finished it, and that I have learned new things in the process of making it. No. I feel that somehow it’s not as good as what —- —— or ——– —- would have done, or that it doesn’t look as good on me as it does on the picture.

It’s silly, I know. But I tend to make myself feel miserable, by comparing myself with rock stars knitters/designers, and here’s that familiar feeling again: of not being good enough or not as good as…

I was very much made aware of that negative pattern when I finished my first flamingo mitten earlier this week. I felt deflated and considered giving up knitting altogether because I wasn’t good enough at it.

A few years ago, you would have told me that I would ever be able to knit stranded colourwork like that, I would have been all over the moon! Now I can do it and I’m not even happy about it. It made me feel like a loser because the end result is not as good as…

And that’s a classic example of how people give up too easily on things.

This lack of contentment, this tendency to not appreciate where I am, right now and to be pleased with the progress I have made will always get in the way! If I can’t look back and allow myself to be happy with the progress I have made (all through making mistakes, trials and a lot of errors) How will I ever be able to enjoy anything at all, let alone the way ahead?

I think that’s the difference between most (sane?) people and the knitting goddesses I tend to compare myself with.

They haven’t been put off by their failures, they had the stubbornness to keep going, to make mistakes and to unravel hundreds, if not thousands of miles/kilometres of knitting without blinking. (I suppose knitting is a bit like weaving time, and we feel that we have “wasted our time” even though we have learned so much about knitting and ourselves in the process of doing so…)

If the knitting goddesses had been whining and complaining and self-loathing like me, they wouldn’t have been able to be where they are today.

Well, I’m sure they too had their moments, but they had a vision and they just kept going “with confidence and hope, through all crises”.

Contentment is the secret of happiness. No need to look anywhere else. We’ve got it all inside us already. We just can’t see it.

So that’s another big life lesson to learn from knitting:

“you have to just knit, knit, knit

if you want to be good at it.” – ahem, Me.

I’m sure that quote could go viral like any other quote, if I paste it on a Johnny Depp photo and share it on Facebook…

Wait! something like that:

pirate + quote

The photo above is from the book: “Knitted Pirates, Princesses, Witches, Wizards and Fairies with outfits and accessories” by Annette Hefford.

(And the quote is from me, I don’t think Johnny Depp or Captain Jack Sparrow ever said that, not in public, anyway!)

And as usual, I need to remind myself the universal mantra of knitting (and of everything else):

 The journey is more important than the destination!

Hari OM!

Noémie.

17 thoughts on “Knit, knit, knit…

  1. I happen to like your knitting,,,,but I know what your saying…I feel the same way about my photographs….I think mine are ok,,there’s always someone better….I even put my camera down for a spell, convinced myself to not even shoot….and truth be told, I missed it because I do it for the enjoyment not for the accolades. So you keep on knitting and I’ll keep in shooting!!!! 😄

    1. Thank you very much :) I like your photographs! I like the way you capture the ambiances around you, they are very atmospheric! Don’t you stop taking pictures!!

  2. Hahaha love it! :) Love your pilling flower and those flamingos are amazing! You are way too hard on yourself! I hate to spout platitudes, but you only have to be the best you you can be, and you seem pretty great at that! :) ps you have actually inspired me to try needle felting, I ordered a little kit. Like I need another craft…geez. Thanks a lot. ;)

    1. Thank you so much for saying it, it means a lot to me :) needle felting is great fun :) and very therapeutic too. Play an album you like and start needle felting, you may find yourself doing it following the rhythms of the music… :)

  3. You are very clever! I knit too but one simple jumper taken me over a year, just one more sleeve to go! I too love your little pilling flower and yes, the flamingos are exquisite! Thank you for sharing.

  4. This is why I love reading craft blogs and hanging out with crafty people… Because that’s when you learn that EVERYONE has the “I am terrible at this” day every once in a while. Since most of us do our making alone, it can be easy to compare ourselves unfavourably with those goddesses of knitting you talked about! But I picked up a great tip from a book called “Knitting in Plain English” – when you’re choosing a pattern, take a second look at how the model is standing in the photo on the front. For example, are they wearing a bag that means you can’t see the shoulder seam in any of the pictures? Do they always have their arms raised, or the sleeves rolled up? If so, chances are they’re trying to hide something that didn’t quite work out! So even the goddesses get it wrong sometimes 😀 Keep calm and carry on knitting… Oh, and felting! Your little fuzzball flower is a great idea!

    1. Thank you so much for your comment :) It’s very kind of you :) I know, knitting goddesses must have made tons of mistake to get there, and making mistakes is a big part of the learning process (for me anyway)… Thanks for reminding me!

      1. Yes I have the same problem… this hat keeps falling on my eyes. I need to put a dreadlocks wig on or something… Although I guess that me using 5mm needles instead of a 4.5 probably doesn’t help…. but when I started I didn’t have 4mm as required for the brim so I started with 4.5mm and then moved on to 5mm instead of 4.5mm… so it’s a bit self-inflicted, but what can I do? I just can’t follow instructions/patterns/recipes… :)

      2. Yes that’s what I usually do too :) although i like knitting fair isle at the moment and that doesn’t give much room for improvisation… the fun is that you can adapt the chart and make it fit on whatever you want :D

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